I’d be the first to tell you that I don’t have a dramatic conversion story. I wasn’t what some might call a “bad guy” before I got saved. Before I became a Christian, I was what I’d consider to be a pretty good guy. And, when I did get saved - which I’m not entirely sure exactly when that was - I wasn’t addicted to drugs or on a bed of suicide or engaged in any sort of criminal activity. I was just a regular, ol’ guy. My conversion story is not dramtic. Or so I thought.
I’ve been pondering this this Advent and Christmas season. And as I reflect on what we celebrate at Christmas, I wonder if my perspective is skewed regarding this. I have a tendency to think of myself more than I think of God. I have a tendency to view life as mostly about me rather than all about God, and my conversion story is no different.
Yet, despite having considered myself a pretty good guy before I got saved, as I consider what Christmas seems to communicate, I see something different. If, indeed, it took an infinitely holy, all-powerful, completely satisfied God King who was fully and eternally happy seated on his throne in the community of the trinity to step down off of his throne and enter into this creation that he created and sustains in order to personally pay the price that I deserved to pay for my sins - well, that seems to change my perspective on a number of things.
First, maybe I wasn’t as good as I think I was before I got saved. And second, maybe the drama - the drama - isn’t ultimately about the things I was doing or not doing before I got saved but, rather, what God did in order to save me and who I was. Maybe, I do have a dramatic conversion story. One whose main character isn’t me but, rather, an infinite and infinitely glorious God who became a character in the drama that he wrote so that he could substitute himself in my place and pay the price that I could never pay, ultimately, all for his glory.
When I think about it like that, perhaps I, and all of us, do have an incomprehensibly dramatic conversion story - a conversion story that could inform my evangelism in new and powerful ways.
Have any of you ever felt like this - that your conversion story isn’t all that interesting? How might reconsidering this affect your worship and your telling of the good news to others?