I’ve had a lot of people share and it touches me. Thank you to everyone who has tried to help me. Here’s the essence of the issue. I don’t believe in works righteousness and fully understand no one entering heaven has lived a righteous life as Christ did, and none of us will earn grace. I also know Jesus said that you’ll know a Christian by their love and know a believer by their fruit. Eternal life is a weighty matter! And it all hinges on a relationship that in many ways, beyond the fruit, is hidden from our eyes. Eternal life isn’t a matter of what we say, but to “KNOW Thee, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom Thou hast sent.” Jesus said not everyone who says to Him, “Lord…” will enter into heaven, and that those whose lives are characterized as workers of iniquity are often tares, not wheat. This is certainly not what anyone wants to hear at a funeral, nor does it need to be, but the urge to believe all will be in heaven is strong and many times the passions of our wishes and feelings are given way to in place of, and to the detriment of, the truth that can save men’s souls. James says the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable. I want to stand on that, first pure, then peaceable ground, because that’s where joy and peace and life abounds.
I certainly hope to not be needlessly taking up time in this forum when other’s needs are greater. I just long for wisdom and clarity. I too have a tender heart for my mom and though I have more pain than sweetness, I love her and miss her. I also love my sisters who are all over the board with me, grieving, loving and wounded, and want to be sensitive to them as they remember her fondly at this time. But even more, I long that those who don’t know the Lord’s goodness would see His face clearly and know He is a very real Friend and Refuge, completely able to save AND make new!
I know at the memorial this weekend I’m likely to have many “assure” me that she is in heaven. I’ve done all I can and so am at peace with having had the privilege of loving her and sharing all I could, and that now it’s fully in God’s capable hands–both all knowing and all loving. I’m not ok though with smiling and nodding in agreement when truth is at stake. Perhaps I’ll just acknowledge God knows and she’s in His hands now. I know Ravi has ways of saying truth very profoundly and succinctly, and didn’t know if someone might have an insight to help me communicate.
That’s it in a nutshell. I’m wanting to hear His voice and the insights of the body of Christ. This is hard for us all as we die to our feelings and seek the good of all around us. In our culture we seem to insist on a happy ending, and when it comes to death, everyone is a “believer”. She may have been, and I very much hope she was, but that’s not my place to say at this point. I believe that where ever she is, from the standpoint of eternity, that she would also earnestly want people now to know the truth, and though it may not seem to be the most immediately comforting path, the truth is always the most loving and to those who surrender, the strongest solid comfort at the end of the day.