I think this question relates to science because it’s a psychological issue that I’d like to discuss and inquire about. I’ve realized a couple weeks ago that I am on auto-pilot. I realized, I don’t think about cooking, I just cook. I don’t think about my job, I just work. I don’t think about walking or talking or reading or hearing or feeling, it just happens automatically. However, at certain moments I have “out of body” experiences where I’m totally blown away by the fact that this a physical world and I actually EXIST. My existence and my experience through this life is all I know, but I rarely acknowledge it. Instead, I’m thinking about the “second layer to reality”.
For example, as I type out this message, I’m far more focused on the communication with others that will hopefully ensue. I’m thinking about how to form the sentences, so my point can get across, and I’m reading my words as I type them aloud in my head. I’d say this is the “second layer” I mentioned before because I lack any real scientific vocabulary to describe this. But then if I start thinking about what’s REALLY happening… as in, what’s happening in the physical world, I realize I ignore it all the time. For example, I feel the shaggy rug on my feet, and my hair is dry and rough. I can hear the click of the keyboard, and I can see the light of my screen projecting all sorts of colors that I am able to distinguish. I’m existing, and the very thought of it is very challenging for me and is somewhat scary. My presence is completely inevitable, but I don’t hardly pay attention to it (in the physical sense at least).
My question is, can anyone relate? Does anyone know what this cognitive conundrum even is, or am I alone in this? Is anyone else just totally floored and somewhat scared of their physical placement in this world?
Any advice to help me stay grounded, personal coping mechanisms, or stories of commonality would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!