Asking for some prayer from this community. I shared a bit my job in my introduction, so some might already know that I work as the women’s outreach coordinator at an HIV/AIDS Service Organization. The work environment can be challenging sometimes as my beliefs often feel the exact opposite of everyone here. The philosophy here can be summed up by saying “everyone should be allowed to do whatever they want, there’s no real right or wrong, do not say anything negative about anyone’s choices”. For example, some of my coworkers believe drug use is not a bad thing and there are no negative consequences. So around those people, you can’t even say that substance addictions are negative, or that you feel bad for someone struggling. (I mostly work with women who use substances, doing harm reduction work, so I find this belief absolutely nonsensical since we are all very aware of the results of a drug struggle). Most days I feel comfortable and happy amongst my co-workers and very much love getting to know them and honestly be who I am, but I’m growing increasingly anxious as one of my coworkers is quite anti-christian. I’ve shared my faith with many coworkers that I am growing more comfortable around, but I find myself afraid that once this person finds out she is going to be mean or confrontational. I really love this person, but am starting to feel like I need to hide my faith from her- which is not a feeling I want to have.
I know on a logical level that I don’t need to be afraid because God is with me in this environment and wants to do work here… but I still feel afraid. It’s sort of funny because before I got this job I had been praying that God will help me become a better sharer of my faith and make me more comfortable being open about my beliefs about unbelievers. I graduated from bible college in May so I hadn’t been “in the world” apart from my part time job in some years. Naturally, I then got a job here where the women doing the job before me ran “sex toy bingos” as an outreach activity to discuss sexual health at the local shelters. (We had a fun conversation when I told her I would be discontinuing those). So, I know I am here to learn. Will you pray for me in this? I want to have peace instead of fear.