Continuing the discussion from Ask Drs. Vince and Jo Vitale (April 16-20, 2018):
I should preface this by saying I’m new to RZIM Connect and I’m not in full-time ministry and therefore maybe not the best qualified to offer comment. But, of all the questions posted in this thread, yours touched me the most.
Your desire to be close to God and sense Him is wonderful. In your own words you say “He is all I ever think about,” which to me expresses a sense of wonder and love that shows your own sense of Him already. Others use more expressive language such as that noted by you - “more real to me than the flesh on my bones” - but we all express our awe and wonder of God in different ways. I don’t think I’d use such words. I may be totally wrong, but the very words you use - “all I ever think about” - expresses that awe and wonder in a beautiful way already!
God is infinite, awesome and altogether wonderful. When you love someone, you think about them all the time. Jesus tells us to “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind” (Matt 22:37). I have an inkling that you’re doing that.
I tend to worship God more in my mind than in my heart and soul. A scripture I’m using to help me to be more contemplative and to listen for God’s still small voice are the middle verses of Psalm 130:
“I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning”
I’m not sure if my response is much help, but I want to encourage you in your walk with Christ. May God continue to bless you mate!
In Christ Jesus,