You have received some great advice and feed back. All of it is excellent. Amen to all that collective wisdom! What a blessing to have that available to you!
Aliya, you are in Christ…seek Him…he has promised…
2 Peter 1: 3
By His divine power, God has given us everything we need for life and godliness. We have received all of this by coming to know Him, the one who called us to Himself by means of His marvelous glory and excellence.”
“Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteous and all these things will be give to you as well.”
So, you can be secure in Him.
Nothing is wasted in God’s economy. Even what may seem like a waste, will come to bear fruit in it’s time, because God’s loving, Sovereign hand is upon you, and His Spirit is in you.
I am an older person, and I can assure you that these things true. God has never failed me. This is the witness of my experience with the Lord.
I will say…God will often surprise us.
While you may have many natural gifts and talents, He may direct you in a way where those gifts and talents are not primary. He may want all that comes about for you to be … only about His Grace, and for His Glory.
God is mysterious and wonderful! If you know your Bible and the history of His dealings with His people…you will know…God never did the same thing twice. His ways are always fresh and new.
This is held in tension with the fact that He never changes. His character is trustworthy and Holy. He doesn’t alter who He is.
But, how He works in us and in the world, is always unique. It is distinctive, so humankind cannot rob Him of His glory for what He has done.
Pay attention to observe how He works in others…and see where He has been, but, He will lead you in a way you have not known. This is because He is a personal and intimate Heavenly Father.
As a young person, I didn’t have the opportunities many people have. I was born into chaos. My young life was sent on a trajectory I wouldn’t have gone on if all things had of been equal. So, when I came to Christ, it was pretty hard to get any sense of calling or purpose, other than God’s grace in saving a sinner like me.
I had many innate natural talents … and if I had had the opportunity, anyone of these would have taken me far, because I was also given the strength and determination of being a hard worker…(Whatever I did, I did with all my heart!)
But, God’s kingdom purpose for me was not in the talents. These were gifts for me. They were gifts God bestowed for me to grow in, to be comforted through, to enjoy, to master…and ultimately to glorify Him…for who He has made me to be. I believe He wants that for all of us. But, the purpose for usefulness in His Kingdom was hidden from me. I think of the verse, “He that is faithful in little, will be given more.” It wasn’t until I was I was close to 40 that I began to see His hand through everything else leading me to a particular vineyard to labour in for Him.
For employment purposes, follow what interests you most and what will support you economically. “Put your hand to the plow and hold on” as the old black spiritual says it. Don’t look back or second guess it. God will bless it.
Enjoy your many talents…develop them, like others have said, outside formal means. You likely will find more benefit in this anyway, because then, the Holy Spirit can be your teacher and guide. In the back of you mind, trust God will reveal, when it pleases Him, your distinct calling.
Os Guinness’s book “The Call” is wonderful. I read it at 60 and was inspired that God still had more in store…I trust God and continue to pray for Him to reveal His calling and purpose…even though, I have know it in a specific manner for 25 years. Like I said, He is a God of surprises…and I know everything in life is cultivating me to live…for His glory.
You have communicated your hearts desire is to be led by the Lord…
Psalm 37: 4
“Take delight in the LORD, ans He will give you the desires of your heart.”