In addition to speaking with my two mentors, I wanted to ask the RZIM community for some advice.
Back in May, my wife and I got married and moved from our college town to my hometown to work for my parents company (albeit remotely). We left an amazing church, amazing community, and a town we loved. Ever since we have arrived in my hometown, our Spiritual lives have suffered. Particularly mine. We have found a great church, but have had a hard time finding community that is in our stage of life. Additionally, my family lives here, and although I love them dearly, they are a negative influence on us and our spiritual lives (which hurts me to say, because I really wanted to be a good witness to them). I also have a history of OCD and Anxiety, and have felt them start to rear their ugly heads again recently. And finally, we just simply miss our church, our community, and our college town.
That said, we are thinking about paying the break lease fee on our apartment and moving back in January. We truly believe it will be better for us spiritually and believe it is a better environment to raise a family in as well. Am I over thinking this, or is my head in the right place? In all honesty I am conflicted both ways, but we desperately need good community and to be poured into by Godly men and women. I also have a strong desire to help with college ministry.