I am really strugglinv right now with anixety. I have always, that I can remember, believed in God and the resurrection of Jesus, but lately I’m so unsure what I believe. I know I still do, but I have question after question, and every question brings up a new question. Its 1 step forward at least 2 steps back. I need to be able to defend my faith…against myself. The pastor of my church said that its the enemy attacking me full force, but no matter how much or hard I pray for answers I’m only left with more and more questions.
I’m currently reading a book that is explaining how the Bible is God breathed but that the authors were free to chose how to write and and thats evident in how we can see they each has their own writing style. They were allowed to write how they wanted as long as it was in the bounds of the truth. That conversations were sumed up rather then verbatim because they were written years later.
I have so many questions. First if the words are not given by God to the authors, authors how is it The Word of God? It’s the word of the authors on historical events. Also if the conversations that people had and the things Jesus said are not really what they said exactly how do we know its even close? I know about Oral traditions, but this seems like a lot of room for error.
I’m sorry I’m really struggling right now to learn and grow and battle whatever is happening with me, but no matter how much I pray for him to show me something so I can know or how much I ask him to help me know with certainty I’m more uncertain then ever.