My world was turned upside down.The mother of my child now ex became pregnant by me not planned and she decided not to keep her. I told her I’ll take care of my child just don’t kill her. I pleaded with her not to, even begged her not to go through with it. I prayed Lord open her heart please. She went through with it and it destroyed me. I began having health problems and felt that this will kill me. All I could think about is my angel in her belly and my 3 year old daughter Ellie. The Lord has stepped in my life multiple times before, but I was so hurt I didn’t know what to do. She had a chemical abortion. It was done. I decided that I can’t handle this burden of guilt and pain. I prayed in desperation one night and the next day when I woke up the burden was gone. I felt that it was gone. My daughter was with God and what better place could there be. Then I thought… He created us, he’s our true Father in heaven. I thought about the scripture when he says… If you love your family more than me then you’re not fit for the kingdom of heaven. I told my friend about this. Hes going through a difficult time and he apologized and said I couldn’t handle that if it was me. I said it’s ok. The burden is gone. The Lord took it from me.
I always ask the Lord to help me and protect me, but I never thought to give the Lord my burden. I’ve read in the scripture about it before, but never thought about it. My guilt might have been why. I pray for my ex and hope she will be forgiven. So on that day coming I feel I’ll get to hold my girl thanks to our righteous Lord.