I was too tired and emotionally drained the other night to read anything serious, so I set aside the book by Ravi that I had been reading, and I turned to The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan. I found a priceless quote on p.35.
Auntie Ying is not hard of hearing. She is hard of listening.
This short statement pulled together my thoughts from Episode 3.
I enjoyed Ivy’s story about having coffee with Rick. He talked for 40 minutes. With only 5 minutes left before he had to go, he said, “So I really love sharing my ideas with people to see what they think. What do you think?”
I would not have handled the discussion as well as Ivy. I seldom have the wisdom to sit and listen for 40 minutes. Processing all that information and answering in 5 minutes is a skill I want to develop.
But the story didn’t end there. That evening Rick took Ivy on another 45-minute rabbit trail. A teenager finally broke through his intellectual barriers when she said, “I believe that God is real because I’ve experienced Him. He has told me things that were true about me and I love Him, and that’s why I think God is real.”
Rick was baffled. He was longing for love, for a God who cared about him. He turned to Ivy and asked, “Have you experienced God?”
Again I wonder how I would have answered. I’m too prone to doubt. I question God’s moving in my life. Was that really an answer to prayer, or would it have happened anyway? Are these good feelings the work of the Holy Spirit or just an emotional trip? Am I positive I’ve experienced God?
But God whispers in my ear, “Jen, keep listening.”
So that’s my one thing for the week. I want to listen better. I want to listen carefully to my friends, but more importantly, I want to listen to God. May it never be said of me, “She’s hard of listening.”